Aimun Bilal
Being sensitive in nature can make life challenging for a person as life isn’t a bed of roses and comes up with various challenges each and every day. Some problems are easy to deal with while others require some amount of patience. However, in this web of problems a sensitive person usually gets entrapped into his/her emotions where things might seem more difficult to him/her. Being a sensitive person myself I’d like to share my experience. So, here it goes: I believe sensitive people feel too much, think too much, but say very little. Probably, that’s why we end up feeling every bit of things going around us because we are usually inexpressive and we give thought to the minutest of details. Smallest things like simple gestures, the way one talks, one thinks, one behaves etc. carry heavy weight in our minds and hearts. We’re always eager to share our thoughts with others but find it difficult to choose the right person. It’ has always been important to us to befriend someone who thinks like us or shares some sort of similarity otherwise we end up in our isolated zones. Yet losing that one person we found after a long difficulty keeps haunting us. We are always in the state of insecurity of losing our friends; we’re in fact too possessive about our friends. We do share our thoughts and experiences with others but also we often need some space.
Life seems unfair at times where we feel we are plunged into the darkness by those probably smarter than us. “I wouldn’t do that to anyone” says the inner voice but why someone would do that to me remains unanswered.
Dealing with hard times gets difficult for us but we manage to deal with it somehow. Even a mere word spoken out rudely is enough to strike an arrow in our hearts at times. Yet we manage to conceal it behind the forced smile that we put on our faces. We are famous for being emotional yet we end up being the strongest in the most difficult situations. At times every word, every gesture, every thought and everything around seems going against our inner self. The fears remain unspoken as we already know the replies that would be said to us. Something like “Hey come-on .Don‘t take things so seriously!” But none understands how much that small thing could matter to us. Life seems unfair at times where we feel we are plunged into the darkness by those probably smarter than us. “I wouldn’t do that to anyone” says the inner voice but why someone would do that to me remains unanswered. Piling up memories like this inside makes days harder at times and people ask us “why don’t you smile?” Little are they aware of the battles going on inside. No, we can’t force a smile, we can’t be chilled all the time, and we can’t just try to enjoy life all the time because that’s not the way we feel. We feel differently. Every small thing holds some relevance to us. Every word spoken goes direct to our hearts. Every emotion is felt too much by us and every relation matters to us. We may not have too many friends but a few that we have are most valuable to us. So, let us cease our efforts in changing each other and accept each other the way we are. Wouldn’t that make life easier for both of you!
(The author is currently pursuing her M A English at Mount Carmel College, Bengaluru. Views are his own [email protected])
