I went to bed after having dinner. My mind was still thinking how much Haider has started to hate zaara. But my mind and heart wasn’t ready to accept that haider hates her because I know Haider often telling me that how much he still loves her . I changed into my night clothes and grabbed a book named “The One you Cannot Have” Written by Preeti shenoy. I opened it up to read it and to divert my mind from whatever happened in the day. As i started to read it i came across the chapter where it’s about mail exchange and what grabbed my attention was the sub topic of “How to keep a man hooked” which said about respecting your man to keep a man hooked. Well i agree that a woman must respect a man if she wants her relationship to last long and so should a man do respect should be both. While I was reading it, it reminded how once zaara insulted Haider just because he was with me and wasn’t able to call her. I still remember how happy and overjoyed he was to see her calling. I also know how he agreed keeping his phone connected to Bluetooth. But the way she spoke was really humiliating for Haider. I still remember her exact words with all the anger “Haider you fool where the hell have you been, you think I am here for your time pass. What do you think you can call me at your own liberty and I will be like Oh Haider wow you called “she even without letting haider to complete disconnected the call and the very next moment she called again and said “Be with your materialistic friend Raqif ” and then disconnected the call again. We drove in silence and he parked his car at a road side and held his head in his hands and started to cry. As he started to sob I truned to him and placed my hand on his shoulder and said “Haider what’s making you cry?” Her words he was fast to reply. And as he said that I fell silent I didn’t had any idea of how to start the conversation again. All that was going in my mind was the way she spoke to him and why did she do this. He had called her before we met, then he called her while we were together and then again while we were in cafe and then again while we were having an ice cream and we had it just half an hour ago. They spoke for 15 minutes while we were in ice cream shop for just 20 minutes. And even after that she behaved this way and it confused and annoyed me at the same time. While I was thinking about breaking the silence a knock on the window pan broke it and it was a little girl with bunch of roses in her hand . She actioned Haider to pull the window pan down and haider did while wiping the tears with the tissue paper I passed him on. As Haider pulled the window pan down the Girl spoke “Apkie Girl friend hai” with all the cuteness . Haan hai haider replied with a smile, while I was watching them having a good conversation. As Haider said yes she pulled out a rose from the bunch and said “Gulab Pyaar kie Nishanie hotie ha , ap ausko ya dadana , woh khush hogie “. This conversation got Haider recharged , he took the rose happily, pulled out a note of 100 rupees and gave it to her . While she was leaving Haider stopped her and passed her the food that we had got packed in the cafe. We both said her goodbyes and she left happily looking at the food we gave her. She was so cute . Yes she was I confirmed. Raqif listen to me haider spoke , I looked into his eyes and I could see the guilt he had in him because of zaara’s words . Bro whatever she said isn’t correct, you aren’t materialistic you have been with me in my worst and you have never asked for anything and you had to listen all this for nothing. Bro I know the truth and she said all this in anger, let’s forget it and you start driving it’s already 10:00 Pm we have to get home . Oh yeah it’s 10 let’s drive he replied. He played the song while he started to drive and we both sat silent and enjoyed the song . Nice song hadier i said , yes it’s the song I and zaara loves and we play the same song . Hmm. Okay I replied and I checked the watch. It was 11:00 pm already! Haider it’s 11:00 Pm stay at my home . While I had gone back to old days i was brought back by the call by Haider. I recived it and said hi while he directly asked “Did you speak to zaara after that” . No i didn’t, okay good he replied and whenever you talk to him don’t tell her that i told you that I hate her , he said . Haider what do you mean , I asked .
I mean it was just heat of the moment I was reading her last chats and you called, I wasn’t able to control. But the fact is that” I still love her” but you know what I hate her when I remember what she did to me how she betrayed me , haider replied . Bro you seem to be confused in hating or loving her , why don’t you sit and think about it so that you are clear about loving or hating her ,I asked .What do you think Raqif I haven’t done that ? I have done that multiple times but believe me hating her is just way too difficult I can’t, I seriously can’t her but yes loving her what she did to me seems to be no option. But yes I love her but I can’t decide should I give her another chance or not he replied. I was listening him in silence untill he asked me”Raqif Do you know what I end up doing “. What I asked. Crying that’s all I do ,he replied. Bro you know zaaara did , bro she insulted you in front of her so called Best Friend only because you asked him to not talk to her in the way he was. Even though it was for her and she slapped you but you forgave her and remember what she told you while she broke up. Remember her telling you that she’s breaking up because you are making her to choose between her best friend or you , which you never did . And it was you who apologised for something you never did. I said to Haider so that he doesn’t forget who was real culprit for they breaking up. I remember everything bro , I even remember the day we took Rose from that little girl , Haider said. Oh you know I was thinking about that day I replied. I too was thinking about that day haider was fast to reply. Leave it bro tell me how is it between you and Isha , do you guys speak , I asked haider to divert his mind. Yeah we do Raqif and she was asking about you he replied. Hmm great i replied. Okay Raqif I need to sleep but yes I must tell you Zaaara’s betrayal has Confused me. I don’t want to hate her but I can’t help it . She did what she should have never done. Let it bro what had to happen happened you sleep. I replied. We disconnected the call after wishing each other Goodnight. Soon after the call got disconnected I checked the watch and the time showed 11:30Pm so I decided to sleep as I had my collage in the morning. I switched off the lights and kept my phone aside and got into my bed. As soon as i closed my eyes my phone buzzed and it was a message from Haider “TELL HER THAT HER BETRAYAL HAS CONFUSED ME”. I didn’t reply to the message and went to sleep keeping my phone on the side table.
(The story is just a fictional piece and has no connection with the reality. The characters are also fictional. Views are author’s own )
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